Monday, April 30, 2012

He who gives strength to the weary

It has been a while since I've blogged here, and boy have things changed.

Not going to Korea

My previous post was about being accepted to go to Korea for university exchange. Well, it didn't happen in the end because Korea University ended up cancelling all of its law courses in English. Words really can't describe how devastated and disappointed I was. Going on exchange had been my dream since late primary/high school, and going to Korea to learn Korean had been something I was really passionate about since first year uni.

Yet despite this, God showed me His sovereignty. He knew me better than I knew myself.

I ended up going to Korea for a holiday in February with 7 friends and it was a time where I really got to see a glimpse of how sinful I could be/am - and that glimpse shocked me. Impatience, pride, grumpiness, annoyance, ungratefulness, hurtful thoughts and words..

Coming back home, I just felt so disoriented in my relationship with God; ungrounded drifting - and this lack of assurance shook a lot of my relationships as well. I was unfairly expecting perfection from people around me, even though it was the most unloving thing, and I got annoyed at them when they didn't deliver. How could they though? The void in me could only be filled with Christ - and for some reason I always glanced over him, instead of at him.

Looking back... I don't think I would've been spiritually mature or ready to go.

Thank you Father :) For always sustaining and looking after me.

Praise God!

Thank you for answering prayer so powerfully - my mum has started going to church and bible study this year! It hadn't occurred to me that God had really answered my prayers - 3/4 of my family worship God together now! 5 years ago, no one in my family knew Jesus, but now 3 of us are brought to know our Creator, Sustainer, Lord and Saviour!

Thank you for the fellow brothers and sisters, soldiers and sheep who continuously encourage me.



Especially thankful for this guy (who I know will read this sooner or later!) who always fights to love Christ and His people and those who do not know Him. He leads me with godliness and love, spurring and encouraging me onto look to Him and to be a lover of God and His word. Even as we walk through trials, let's walk together, keep our eyes on Christ as we encourage each other to love Him above all things. 

His reward is with Him. The good news of the gospel is that we get to enjoy God!

A funny thing to share with you guys - the bible verse in the header image on top from Psalms wasn't exactly a verse I REALLY liked - I wondered why people liked it so much.

Isaiah 40:6-11

A voice says, “Cry out.”

    And I said, “What shall I cry?”
“All people are like grass,

    and all their faithfulness is like the flowers of the field.

The grass withers and the flowers fall,

    because the breath of the Lord blows on them.

    Surely the people are grass.

The grass withers and the flowers fall,

    but the word of our God endures forever.”
You who bring good news to Zion,

    go up on a high mountain.

You who bring good news to Jerusalem,

    lift up your voice with a shout,

lift it up, do not be afraid;

    say to the towns of Judah,

    “Here is your God!”
10 
See, the Sovereign Lord comes with power,
    and he rules with a mighty arm.
See, his reward is with him,
    and his recompense accompanies him.
11 
He tends his flock like a shepherd:
    He gathers the lambs in his arms
and carries them close to his heart;
    he gently leads those that have young.


Recently I've been really struggling with pride though, finding that I'm often looking for assurance from winning arguments with people rather than finding the assurance that I'm already right with God in Christ.

Reading this verse reminds me that seeking glory, seeking assurance and seeking validation from dying flowers that are wasting away daily is useless. Refuge, strength, acceptance, validation, mercy, comfort, love, hope and grace can only be found in the enduring word of God - Jesus Christ :)

Isaiah 40:28-31

Do you not know?
    Have you not heard?

The Lord is the everlasting God,

    the Creator of the ends of the earth.

He will not grow tired or weary,

    and his understanding no one can fathom.
29 
He gives strength to the weary

    and increases the power of the weak.
30 
Even youths grow tired and weary,
    and young men stumble and fall;
31 
but those who hope in the Lord
    will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
    they will run and not grow weary,
    they will walk and not be faint.


I'm tired Lord... I am from running everywhere but to You. I will find my strength in You, my purpose in Your Son and I will enjoy You even when it becomes hard because You're worth it. :]

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

I got accepted!!

:D :D 


praise God! 


I've been accepted into the exchange program for Korea University for the first Semester of 2012 :D so great to know that I have at least 2 friends also going to South Korea during that period :) 


I'm feeling really excited, quite scared but overall not knowing what to expect! 


Thanks to everyone for all your supportive responses, I feel so loved! I googled for some blogs written by other students who went to Korea University for exchange.. and also judging by what my work colleague Esther and Rosa have been telling me, they've found it a blast!


This guy seems to have written a pretty detailed blog from scratch on what it's about :) while this blogger  presents what seems to be quite an honest blog about the university work there and the challenges of working with local students as an international student. :) 


I'm so excited, I'm feeling jittery! I don't want to study Admin Law, I just want to learn more Korean! Thanks for the advice, Brendan Wong :D 




Hopefully I'll be able to track down my thoughts and experiences leading up to and going on Exchange (if that's what God has in plan).  I'll end with a few tips in applying for exchange at UTS that I found handy.



  • Use your electives. SERIOUSLY. especially for law!
  • if you can't find enough subjects in English in a Korean university (대학교 (dae-hag-gyo), literally “big school”), try to see if they let you use postgrad subjects!
  • look for subjects that match your subject plan long before the application process

Goals:
  • learn more Korean and be able to order in a Korean restaurant before I leave
  • not pack too much before I go
  • try to meet more Kodae (Korean University) students.. somehow, and get in contact with their christian group/churches
  • take photos of street fashion :D 
  • being bold in getting to know and hanging out with the local students
  • not getting distracted by the excitement of it all and continue to pray for God to use me throughout this experience :) 

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Deuteronomy 12


“When the Lord your God cuts off before you the nations whom you go in to dispossess, and you dispossess them and dwell in their land, take care that you be not ensnared to follow them, after they have been destroyed before you, and that you do not inquire about their gods, saying, ‘How did these nations serve their gods?—that I also may do the same.’ You shall not worship the Lordyour God in that way, for every abominable thing that the Lord hates they have done for their gods, for they even burn their sons and their daughters in the fire to their gods.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

SO DISTRACTED!

come on commercial law!

Sunday, May 1, 2011

He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose.

- Jim Elliot 
From: 


Jim Elliot was a boy who loved Jesus. One day a friend of his parents asked him if he was going to be a preacher when he grew up. “I don’t know,” Jim replied. “But I would like to tell someone about Jesus, that never heard of Him before!” And that is just what happened.
When Jim grew up, he and his wife Betty were missionaries to the Indians in South America. They met a missionary from Ecuador, who told them about the needs of the Indians in that country. There were several different tribes of Indians living in the jungle. Some of them were being taught by missionaries already. Others had never heard of Jesus. One of these tribes was a wild and savage people called Aucas!
The Aucas were great hunters in the jungle. They hunted wild pigs, monkeys, and jaguars with their spears and bows and arrows. Auca Indians always went barefoot, and they could recognize another person’s footprint like we recognize the faces of our friends!
But the Aucas didn’t know about Jesus. Their lives were dark and sad and full of fear. They had many cruel customs. If they saw anyone in the jungle who was not of their tribe, they would sneak up and kill them with their spears. They also speared each other, killing their own friends and relatives during the slightest quarrel.
When a man killed another man, the family of the dead man would hunt for the killer and spear him too. Often parents killed their own children, just because they were tired of taking care of them. Everyone was always afraid of being suddenly killed! That is how people live, when they don’t know anything about Jesus or God’s laws or how to be kind.
Jim and Betty Elliot and their friends felt sorry for the Auca Indians. They wanted to help them learn about Jesus, so they could be free from their darkness and fear. But how could they get into the Auca’s village without being killed?
Several missionary families built themselves houses in the jungle. They lived with the friendly tribe of Quichua Indians, across the river from the Aucas. They learned the Indian language, and preached to them about Jesus. Many of the Quichua Indians became Christians.
But Jim could not forget about the poor sad Auca Indians. He wanted to tell them about Jesus, too! There was one Auca girl who lived with the friendly Quichua Indians. Her name was Dayuma, and she had run away from the Aucas several years before when someone was trying to kill her. Now the missionaries talked with her, to learn the Auca language.
The missionaries decided to try flying their little plane over the Auca village, and dropping gifts to the Indians. They hoped that this would be a way to make friends with the Aucas! They would put the presents in a bucket at the end of a strong fishing line, and lower it down from the open door of the plane. Nate Saint, the pilot, experimented until he found a way to release the bucket from the line and set it on the ground.
The first gift was a shiny aluminum kettle with a lid. Inside they put twenty brightly colored buttons, not for the Indian’s clothes, because the Auca Indians didn’t wear any clothes! But Jim thought the Indians might like to string the buttons and use them for decorations.
The first time Nate and Jim flew over the Auca village, the people were all frightened and hid inside their houses. A brisk wind buffeted the small plane as Nate tried to hold it steady over the group of thatched houses. Cautiously Jim reeled out the line. The kettle almost got caught in the trees, and he pulled it back a little. . . then set it down gently right in front of the biggest house!
The next time Jim and his friends brought the gifts to another house, so the Aucas would not get jealous of each other. And this time when the Indians heard the plane coming over, they ran out of their houses! They watched excitedly as the gift was lowered from the plane. A gust of wind blew the gift-bucket toward the river, and splash! It dropped in. Then, quick as a wink, there was another splash! as an Indian dived in for the treasure. They soon found it, and stood around talking happily. Jim saw a sight that thrilled him: an old man waving with his arms as if to say, “Come down!” As the plane turned and flew away, Jim prayed: Lord, send me to the Aucas!
Every week after that, the missionaries made another flight to drop gifts to the Auca Indians. They gave them shirts, knives, and plastic cups, candy and a flashlight. They began to fly lower and lower above the Auca village, and would lean out the door of the plane to shout at the Indians: “We are your friends! We would like to visit you!”
On the sixth flight, after the Aucas had taken the gift bucket, they held onto the line for a few minutes. When they let it go, it came up with a present for the missionaries: a headband woven of feathers! The next time they sent a basket back up on the line. In the basket was a beautiful tame parrot, with a banana for the parrot to eat! Jim and his friends praised the Lord. It seemed like the Aucas were becoming friendly.
Other people said, “You fellows are crazy to waste all that good stuff on the Aucas. They will be just as mean as before.” But the missionaries kept praying that God would make the Auca Indians friendly, so that they could tell them about Jesus.
After about two months of flying over the Auca village with gifts, the missionaries decided it was time to land on a little beach beside the river, close to where the Aucas lived. They would build themselves a tree house to live in, and try to talk to the Aucas.
There were five men altogether: Jim, Nate, and three others named Pete, Roger, and Ed. They prayed and talked with their wives for a long time before they made the decision to move into the Auca’s country. All of them knew very well that it was dangerous. But they loved God and knew that they belonged to Him. They were not afraid to die and go to heaven.
So they landed their plane beside the river and built a house in a tall tree. Some of the men flew over the Auca village again, calling: “Come down to the river! We want to visit you there!” Then they camped and waited.
On the third day, the men were sitting in their camp, when suddenly they heard a shout from across the river! Their hearts jumped as they turned to look. Three Aucas were stepping out of the woods: a man and two women. Calling out, “Welcome! Welcome!” in the Auca language, Jim waded across to meet them. He took their hands and helped them back across to the missionaries’ camp. The five missionaries tried hard to show the Aucas that they wanted to be friends. They gave them food and gifts, and smiled and talked.
They soon nicknamed the Auca man “George”, and when “George” asked for a ride in the plane, they were happy to give him one! They flew the plane low over the Auca village once more, and George laughed with delight as he recognized his home. He leaned out to wave and yell at the other Aucas.
When the plane landed back at camp, the five missionaries gave thanks to God out loud, looking up toward the sky so that the three Aucas could see what they were doing.
That night the three Aucas returned to their village. They did not invite the missionaries to come with them, so Jim and his friends stayed at their camp. That was on Friday. On Sunday, Nate called his wife on the radio to say that a big group of Auca men were coming. “Just in time for a church service!” he told her excitedly. “This is the big day! I’ll call you back this afternoon and let you know what happens!”
So the missionaries’ wives waited eagerly that afternoon. They were hoping to find out if the men had been able to visit the Auca’s village. But the afternoon passed, and the men did not call as they had promised. Night came on and the women began to worry. What could have happened? Were the missionaries safe?
The next day more men took another plane and flew over the camp. They brought back sad news: Jim and Nate and their friends were all dead. The Auca Indians had killed them with their spears!
The five missionaries had guns with them in their camp, but they did not use them to fight the Indians. When the Auca men came toward them with their spears, they did not shoot back with their guns. They knew that if they would shoot the Indians, they could probably save their own lives. But then they would never be able to teach the Aucas about Jesus! So they chose to let themselves be killed, and let the Aucas have another chance to become Christians.
The Aucas always remembered those five strange white men who had been so kind to them and had not tried to kill them. And so a year later when more missionaries tried again to speak to the Aucas about Jesus, they were ready to listen.
Several of the men who had helped to kill Jim and his friends with their spears now became Christians. One of them gave his testimony at a meeting. He counted on his fingers and said, “I have killed twelve people with my spear! But I did that when my heart was black. Now Jesus’ blood has washed my heart clean, so I don’t live like that anymore.” God’s love had changed his life!

Historical Note: The death of these five brave missionaries happened on January 8, 1956 Jim Elliot, Nate Saint, Roger Youderian, Ed McCully, and Pete Fleming did much for the Kingdom of God. Not only did the Aucas learn about Jesus’ forgiveness and love, but many other people all over the world decided to serve the Lord too after they heard the story.

Endurance inspired by hope in our Lord Jesus Christ

1 Thessalonians 1:3; We remember before our God and Father your work produced by faith, your labor prompted by love, and your endurance inspired by hope in our Lord Jesus Christ.


Mon spoke really well on 1 Thessalonians 1:1-3 today and it really rebuked me about how little endurance I have to resist temptation and to stay focused on where my life is heading towards, and how much I think about Christ continually moulding me to be more like Him. 


Sometimes I feel like I'm moving towards everything and I feel that this is because I'm not realising how His coming and the reality of ETERNITY should transform the way I'm living now, how it should transform the things I spend time on, how it should transform the objects of my affections and the things I look forward to and the things that should break my heart. I forget that the Christian life is meant to be active and not passive, and moving towards becoming more like Christ to radiate God in our lives :) 


To end, here are some lyrics from the song Hosanna that we sang today, and I really like the bridge. Lyrics to a song mean a lot to me, they're like the soul of the song and they speak a lot; sometimes I don't even realise just how powerful they are.

Heal my heart and make it clean 
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause
As I go from nothing to 
Eternity


The Sufficiency of Christ

Just came home from a really challenging sermon about submissive wives - submitting first not to their husbands but to Christ as our bridegroom, lover, sacrificial husband.

The Real Property quiz that I have tomorrow that I haven't studied for is postponing the rest of this post... but one thing I was challenged about was:

The flipside of the unconditional love that Jesus first showed to us (and husbands now to their wives), is the unconditional respect that we should show as wives to our husbands, who we submit to out of our reverence and love for Jesus. 


Some really confronting biblical truths that really prodded me to think about my supreme satisfaction and joy in who Jesus is, and the attitude I have towards the brothers I serve in ministry with - our respect for them shouldn't need to be earned!